A Journey to God

A Notebook and a Revelation

Not long ago, I was flipping through a notebook I’ve kept for years. I use it for Bible reflections, notes from my studies, and sometimes even as a kind of journal. I’m not someone who writes daily entries, but when I’ve felt overwhelmed or struggled to find the words to pray, writing has helped me pour out my heart to God.

As I read through these old entries, I began to notice something: my “prayers” weren’t really prayers at all. They were full of frustration, sadness, disappointment, and a lot of complaining. I kept writing to God, but I wasn’t coming to Him in faith—I was just venting my emotions.

From Complaining to Confidence

That moment was eye-opening. I realized I had spent years asking God for something He had already told me He would give me—but instead of trusting, I was complaining. My words weren’t rooted in faith but in discouragement.

And yet today, by the grace of God, I can say He has answered that prayer. But looking back, I understand why I didn’t receive it then:

I wasn’t ready.
My heart wasn’t in the right place.
I wasn’t mature enough to handle the blessing.

If God had given it to me at that time, I probably would’ve mismanaged it—or even walked away from Him.

Faith Means Trusting Without Seeing

One of the most powerful lessons I learned is what the Bible tells us in Hebrews 11:1:

“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

Faith isn’t just believing when everything is clear. Faith is believing even when nothing makes sense. It’s trusting God when there’s no visible sign of change. And it’s worshiping Him in the waiting, not just after the miracle comes.

Worship Before the Breakthrough

At one point, I came across a song that deeply ministered to me. The lyrics said:

“Before the miracle happens, I will worship You.”

That hit me hard. Too often we wait until after the breakthrough to praise God. But real faith says, “I’ll worship You before I see the answer. I’ll praise You even when I feel empty.”

That’s what God is looking for—a heart that adores Him, not just for what He does, but for who He is.

Evaluate Your Prayer Life

Let me ask you this:
How are you praying right now?

• Are your prayers filled with trust or complaints?
• Are your words coming from frustration or faith?
• Are you thanking God, or just telling Him what you don’t have?

If you’re constantly frustrated, discouraged, or even angry with God—it’s time to pause and shift your approach. Trust me, I’ve been there. Complaining doesn’t move God’s hand, but worship does. Worship and faith create the atmosphere for breakthrough.

Act Like It’s Already Done

A dear sister at my church once told me,

“Whitney, you need to start acting like you’ve already received it.”

That stuck with me. And it’s so aligned with what faith really is. Even if I don’t see it yet, I believe it’s done. So I act like it’s done. I speak like it’s done. I worship like it’s done.

That kind of faith honors God—and guess what? Not long after I made that shift, I received a call offering me a job—the exact position I had been praying for. It was in the place of my dreams, with the details I had specifically asked God for. He was faithful.

God Is Preparing You and the Blessing

Sometimes, we don’t receive the promise because we’re not waiting well. Or we’re still trying to do things our own way. But God loves us too much to give us something we’re not ready for.

Remember this:

God isn’t just preparing the blessing for you—He’s also preparing YOU for the blessing.

Maybe you’re asking for a job, a spouse, a ministry opportunity, or healing. God may already be working behind the scenes, setting up every detail. Your job? Trust. Worship. Wait well.

Final Encouragement

If you’re in a season of waiting, I encourage you:

• Lay down the complaints.
• Surrender the frustration.
• Pick up worship.
• Walk in faith.
• Trust God’s timing.

He hasn’t forgotten you. And when the time is right, He will do exceedingly and abundantly more than you can ask or imagine (Ephesians 3:20).

Until then, worship like it’s already done.